As many of you know, I have been on a health and wellness journey for about 7 months now and am becoming the incredible shrinking woman. I get the compliments, see the number on the scale drop and even buy clothes in smaller and smaller sizes but for some reason, my brain still tries to convince me that I am not as successful as it would appear.
When the scale shows a drop I think, "I'm probably just dehydrated." When I buy a new pair of pants a size smaller than the last time I say to myself, "The label is probably wrong." It's not that I have a distorted body image; I see a positive change when I look in the mirror and feel a sense of pride and accomplishment about my performance. Why is it then that my brain acts like that annoying person you know who gives back-handed compliments or asks questions that make you doubt yourself?
After chastising myself quite a bit for this, I came to a realization: I don't think my brain can keep up with my changing body. I have been overweight most of my life and "morbidly obese" for about four years. My brain can see my body changing but sometimes it forgets. Ever cut your hair short and then try to brush your missing hair for the next few days, hitting your shoulder every time you run out of hair? Or go out without a purse one night and then keep thinking that you lost it for a second before you remember that you don't have it? It's all the same thing!
I've had to consider whether or not I would be comfortable in a tight booth or stop myself from walking into regular clothing stores because nothing would fit me there for a long time. My brain cannot just shut down the assumptions and understandings that it had for so many years. If I've been so patient with my body and the weight loss, I need to start giving my brain the same respect. I'll start just accepting these funny little doubt moments and know that my brain will adjust soon and I'll be able to fully actualize my self-confidence. :D
Happy Healthy Living,
Start Weight- 270 lbs
Current Weight- 206.8 lbs
Goal Weight- 145 lbs target, under 200 lbs by April 27