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Hi.  I'm so not dealing well with this I'm overweight thing.

In high school, actually throughout my entire childhood I was concidered underweight.  I'm 5'6" and in HS weighed only 110 pounds.  Thought life was miserable when I got up to 115 and couldn't fit into a size 5 or 6. 

In college I gained about 20 pounds making me weigh 135.  For my height that was actually a good thing I just needed to actually work out or something to tone up.  I of course didn't see it that way.  Ironicly neither did my Dad.  He seemed to believe I was way overweight and pudgy.  Ummm Dad those were called boobs and curves.  I actually had some at that time.  Looking back at those photos I actually looked good and now can't believe how much time I wasted thinking "I'm fat". 

Jump forward a few years (ok more than a few).  I lost my mom and got married all within the same year.  Yep gained some stress weight that year.  Then the pregnancies and now hypothyroidism.  Well my hypothyroidism is under control with medication and the levels are good.  My youngest is 4 1/2 so..... I definately should have lost the "baby" weight by now.  Instead I weigh more than I did with any of my 3 pregnancies.  I am now up to a whooping 186 pounds. 

I'm realistic and know I'll never be that skinny, size 6, 110 pound person.  And based on my height I probably shouldn't be.  I'm just so tired of looking at myself (when I brave it and actually look) and going EWWWWWWWWW  YUCK!!!!!!!!!!

On the plus side last month I started walking 3 times a week.  I walk about 1 mile each time at a local state park.  It's really pretty so it doesn't seem like exersize just me getting to enjoy some alone time.  I'm not a big exersize fan and cannot afford to join a gym anyways. 


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