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The fitness guru, 35, shared a set of stretches to Instagram, Sunday, explaining that while she’s taking extra caution with her healing body, the moves have helped her feel better.
“I’m being super gentle with my body right now, considering what it has just been through…but I start getting stiff and uncomfortable due to lack of my typical movement,” she wrote.
“Here are some light stretches I turned to today that have helped me, while sticking with my recovery. They feel good and I think you may like them too,” she added.
In the short clip, Baldwin performs a variety of stretches in what appears to be her living room, while daughter Carmen briefly pops her head into the frame. (Related: Hilaria Baldwin Confirms She Has Suffered a Miscarriage: ‘There Was No Heartbeat Today at My Scan’)
“And yes: Carmen likes to peek,” Baldwin joked.
I’m being super gentle with my body right now, considering what it has just been through...but I start getting stiff and uncomfortable due to lack of my typical movement. Here are some light stretches I turned to today that have helped me, while sticking with my recovery . They feel good and I think you may like them too #letsmove2019 ...and yes: Carmen likes to peek
Less than a week after revealing she was “likely” suffering a miscarriage, the yoga instructor confirmed on Instagram last Tuesday that she had lost her baby after the unborn child showed no signs of a heartbeat.
“There was no heartbeat today at my scan…so it’s over…” she captioned the post, featuring a photo with her family. “But I have some pretty strong and amazing heartbeats right here.”
The adorable photo featured her and husband Alec Baldwin, 61, posing with their four children: Carmen, 5½, and sons Romeo Alejandro David, 10 months, Leonardo Angel Charles, 2½, and Rafael Thomas, 3 ½.
“I am surrounded by such love and I feel so fortunate,” Hilaria continued. “Thank you all for listening, for your support, and for sharing your own personal stories. We are stronger together…” (Related: How I Learned to Trust My Body Again After a Miscarriage)
She said she knew something was wrong at an early check-in appointment when her technician got quiet and struggled to find a heartbeat. (Related: Hilaria Baldwin Had the Perfect Response to Someone Who Shamed Her Miscarriage Post)
“She could find it and she’d listen to it and hear it, [but it was] very spread apart and slow. She said to me that the heartbeat is not very fast,” Baldwin said. “Then I went in again, and in the life of an embryo — days, a week — it’s completely different. And it was the same.”
I want to share with you that I am most likely experiencing a miscarriage. I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss. I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies...and I don’t want to keep this from you, just because it isn’t as positive and shiny as the rest. I think it’s important to show the truth...because my job is to help people by being real and open. Furthermore, I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalize miscarriage and remove the stigma from it. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting. I’m nauseous, tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything is just fine—and it truly isn’t. I don’t want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand. So, this is what is going on now: the embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn’t strong, and the baby isn’t growing very much. So we wait—and this is hard. So much uncertainty...but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy. I have complete confidence that my family and I will get through this, even if the journey is difficult. I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends, and my loving family...My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly. The luck and gratitude I feel that I am my babies’ mommy, is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting. In your comments, please be kind. I’m feeling a bit fragile and I need support. I’m hoping, that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic.
Baldwin explained that she chose to be open with her miscarriage because hiding the news would have been harder than just being honest.
“It’s a lot to ask of me but for me personally, it’d be harder for me to do it silently,” she confessed. “Say I was doing a fitness segment. I would be wearing something different so you could not see that my belly is a little bit bigger than it typically is. I would pretend I wasn’t nauseous and I would pretend I wasn’t tired—and that’s really tiring. Then you put the emotion on top of that of, ‘Hey this isn’t going in a great direction,’ and that’s a lot to bear.”
“Being open for me just allowed me to relieve it a little bit,” she added. “Secrets are only scary when they’re secrets. Once you let the secret out, it’s not so scary anymore.”
In the week since, the star has focused on counting her blessings, namely her husband and children.
Baldwin on Friday shared a sweet throwback photo of herself with Rafael and Carmen, writing that she was pouring her energy into “joyful moments.”
“In coping with loss or a difficult time, it is important to be present for your emotions and process, but also keep an eye on perspective and joyful moments,” she wrote. “This photo, sent to me by a friend just now, was taken 3 years ago today. This is Rafa, I am like 5-6 months pregnant with Leonardo, and Carmen is off to the right. Peaceful, happy, full of love.” (Related: Here Is Exactly What Happened When I Had a Miscarriage)
“When I get sad, I like to remind myself that sadness passes like a season,” Baldwin continued. “I like to look at my blessings, my happiness, and always remembering that I have so many more good times to look forward to. It is a balance of sitting with grief, as we don’t want to shove it away and not address it…but also not let it cloud how wonderful life is.”
This story originally appeared on People.com by Rachel DeSantis.