Whitney Port Got Candid About the Mix of Emotions She Has After Her Recent Miscarriage
In a podcast episode, she broke down everything she's been going through.
During and after her pregnancy with her son Sonny, Whitney Port shared the good and the bad of becoming a new mom. In a YouTube series titled "I Love My Baby, But..." she documented her experience with things like pain, bloating, and breastfeeding.
Now, Port again gave her honest perspective on pregnancy, this time about having a miscarriage. In a new episode of her podcast With Whit, she and her husband, Tim Rosenman, talked about Port's second pregnancy, which ended in a miscarriage two weeks ago. (Related: Pregnant Shay Mitchell Tearfully Recalls Being 'Blindsided' By Previous Miscarriage at 14 Weeks)
At the start of the episode, Port revealed that she'd been uncertain about having a second child before becoming pregnant. "Basically what happened was I stopped taking my birth control," she explained on the podcast. "I think what I wanted to happen was for us to get pregnant without having the conversation and without having to try for it, to kind of be out of my control."
When she found out that she was pregnant, she didn't have a completely positive outlook. "I felt scared because of all the sacrifices and what I was going to have to go through again to have this child and to be a mom," she said. "But I was also scared just to even admit that I was scared about having the child. I felt extremely ashamed and guilty that I felt this way, and so just these layers of shame and guilt make it so hard to even talk about."
Six weeks into her pregnancy, Port noticed she was spotting. She then went to the hospital for tests and found out that her pregnancy was no longer viable. After discussing her options with her doctor, she opted for a dilation and curettage (D&C) procedure, she said. ICYDK, a D&C procedure is often done after a miscarriage to remove the fetus and other tissues, according to Johns Hopkins Medicine. (Related: Hannah Bronfman Shared Her Miscarriage Story In an Intimate Vlog)
When Port addressed her outlook on the miscarriage now, she choked up as she revealed that she feels a mix of emotions. "I can't say I feel relieved," she said. "I feel sad because the whole thing is just traumatic. I feel sad, but I do also feel happy that my body is still my own right now and that this isn't an extra thing that we have to plan for."
Throughout the podcast, Port expressed hesitation about opening up, fearing that people will shame her for not being 100 percent sad about her pregnancy ending. But she said she wanted to show other women that whatever they're feeling after a miscarriage is okay: "I feel like for us at the end of the day it's so much more important that this conversation is out there forever for people to listen to so that they feel some validation."