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Yolanda Hadid Reveals She Contemplated Suicide While Battling Lyme Disease

Former Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star Yolanda Hadid was diagnosed with Lyme disease in 2012—and since then, she's been dealing with severe complications from the condition. (You may remember Gigi Hadid honoring her mother's battle last year.) To make matters worse? Yolanda's two other children, Bella and Anwar, have also been diagnosed with the same illness and continue to undergo treatment. (Eek! By 2015, Lyme disease had spiked 320 percent in the U.S.—and 2017 is set to be even worse.)


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Now, Yolanda is opening up about her personal struggles with the illness, including how the disease drove her to contemplate suicide, in her new memoir Believe Me: My Battle with the Invisibility of Lyme Disease.

"I take off my clothes and slip into the dark blue ocean, which is cool and comforting," she writes in her book, as reported by People, referring to the time she was on vacation with her then-husband David Foster. "The waves gently wash over my naked body, and I can feel the current tugging at me. Tears pour out of my eyes, roll across my cheeks, and meld with the salt water as I try to still my mind to become one with the water's ebb and flow."


The final item on my to-do list to get back to complete and vibrant health was to have cavitation surgery that I have put off for the past 4 years because I didn't really understand the correlation of dental health and recovering from chronic disease. I Removed all my Mercury amalgams and metal based crowns and changed bad root canals to zirconia implants, I slowly over the years detoxed with ion foot baths and cilantro oil drops orally. although my wisdom tooth extraction 7 years ago seemed a relatively minor procedure from the viewpoint of conventional dentistry, In biological dentistry they view jaw cavitation as a major interference field , a common complication particularly for patients who are already immuno-suppressed with high levels of inflammation like chronic Lyme patients. these cavitations creates a perfect space for infection to hide and therefor a continuous attack on the immune system. This residual infection, known as a jaw neuralgia-inducing cavitational osteonecrosis (NICO) is often found at the sites of past wisdom tooth extraction so choose your dental care wisely and educate yourself about anything that goes in or out of your body.......... #MyHealthJourney #RecoveringFromChronicDisease #TheDentalConnection #SwissBioHealth

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She continues: "God please just take me away in a wave," she writes. "I can't live like this one more day. Please carry my body away. I just want to disappear." She went on to say: "My next thought is a clear image of my three children. It shifts my consciousness immediately and that's the only thing that keeps me from letting myself drift and drown."

During this time two years ago, Yolanda's illness was forcing her to stay in bed for up to 22 hours a day because of painful symptoms such as joint pain, exhaustion, and insomnia, according to People. Even answering an email became a daunting task, making her feel severely depressed. Her physical and mental health was at an all-time low.

Since then, however, the mother of three has come a long way and is focused on regaining her health. "As difficult as these past five years have been, I am so grateful that this journey has led me to live in the light," she tells People. "I have had it all and lost it all, only to realize that less is more, money can't buy you health or happiness, and one day at a time is good enough."

Hadid's memoir hits shelves on September 12.


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