Drowning out self-doubt
September 24, 2009
I went out to a bar the other night with my friends Jenna and Brandy, both single girls like me. There were lots of cute guys there, so they thought it would be fun to send drinks to a few. Before long, Jenna and Brandy were both deep in conversation with guys, but I just couldn't get myself to buy a beer for anyone. As much as I hated to admit it, I didn't want to risk being rejected if he thought I was too fat.
This realization ruined the evening for me, and was still bugging me the next day. I've worked so hard this past year to shed pounds-why didn't my attitude transform the way my body has? I realized that I needed to give myself a break. I can't expect my self-image to change overnight. Like losing weight, gaining confidence takes time and effort. In the meantime, I'm going to remind myself that I'm already quite the catch!