The founder of Blogilates gets real about hating her lower belly—and how she's going to try to stop.

By Faith Brar
January 03, 2019
Photo: @blogilates / Instagram

Cassey Ho of Blogilates is known for keeping it real with her 1.5 million Instagram followers. The Pilates queen most recently made headlines for creating a timeline of "ideal body types" to illustrate the ridiculousness of beauty standards. She's also shared why she doesn't believe in diets that involve seriously restricting food intake or in making changes that aren't sustainable long-term. Her latest effort to keep it real on the internet focuses on a part of her body that she's always been super self-conscious about-which is not something a lot of fitness personalities are willing to do.

"I am going to do something I've never done before, and honestly, don't want to do," she shared alongside a video on Instagram. "But since I've asked you to take a before photo, I wanted to get vulnerable and show you the one part of my body that I am least confident about. My abs."

Ho revealed that she's been bullied and trolled about her stomach for most of her life: "From years of kids making fun of me for being fat, from years of mean comments telling me I wasn't fit enough to be a fitness instructor, I've held a lot of resentment and hatred for my body in my lower belly," she wrote.

Not only that, but being self-conscious about this one part of her body has made Ho doubt her self-worth as a whole. "It's the one part of my body I can't seem to control, and because of that, sometimes I feel like a failure," she wrote. "It's quite sad actually that something that is so simple and so physical can be so emotional." (Related: Why Body-Shaming Is Such a Big Problem-and What You Can Do to Stop It)

While being candid about her insecurities, Ho also shared that one of her New Year's goals is to appreciate her body more for everything it's capable of doing. "I'm truly excited about [training] my abs to get stronger, and to train my mind and my heart to love my body for exactly what it can do and not what it looks like," she said. "If fat loss and ab definition come, so be it! If it doesn't, imma have the craziest, coolest core I've ever had!!! And that's something to be proud of!"